everything is simultaneously amazing and horrible
it feels like things are the greatest theyve ever been and also worse in completely unique ways. Everything is so easy and accessible that it's created new problems that other generations probably could've never imagined. and it makes me wonder like are we uniquely messing this all up or is it inevitable if the powers at be are doing what they're doing. Why is it so impossible for me to get off instagram reels and go outside? why do i feel so uncomfortable talking to strangers? i can't even do menial tasks like microwave leftovers without music or a youtube video in the background. If i need something on the fly it's so hard not to just order it on amazon, it's cheaper than it would be anywhere else and i can get it like the same day now. it's like we've exchanged convenience for our souls for like human nature. we have more information than we could possibly ingest in a lifetime but we're all dumber than ever but there's so much fake new omg its so much. its probably best for me to just take things one day at a time i know. delete things that cloud my life too intentionally with no real return, the youtube app, instagram, doordash, maybe start pooping without my phone and work from there. my mom used to keep magazines and books in the bathroom like holy W i gotta bring that back #asap !! Presence is such a beautiful thing and every power in the world is trying to stop us from staying in it, it must be a powerful thing. My bf said something interesting the other day about how he is more inclined to partake in megacorps that actually have a product even if its a shitty one but where he draws the line is the megacorps where we are the product. #TruthNuke lol... one day at a time.